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The most important thing about me is that I am a Christian. I love the Lord & trust in Him. It is not always easy; but I will never give up!
I married my best friend, G.W., on October 7, 2006. Our life together has been really tough at times; but it is OUR life & I treasure every moment of it. He is an amazing husband & I thank God every day for bringing him into my life.
We are one of the few couples I know that do not have children. I am one of many woman that suffers from infertility; and have been told I will probably never bear children of my own. Although that journey has been heart wrenching; I believe God wants us to be parents. Very soon we will be starting the adoption process; and I am so excited about this!

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Easton Birth Announcement

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Thursday, July 12, 2012

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It has been a really long time since I have written on this blog.  As you can see there has been one major change in my life.  I am now a MOM!  In my prior posts my husband & I were talking about adoption.  Well we went back and forth regarding adoption for several years.  We wanted to be financially stable before submitting our application.  We were finally ready to submit that application at the end of October 2011.  Well...on my birthday, October 1, 2011, we found out we were pregnant!!  What a blessing from the Lord above!
Our little gift from God, Easton Asher, was born on June 11, 2012.  We are beyond happy and very blessed!


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Sunday, January 10, 2010

New Year = New Opportunities

Well, well....it has been quite a while since I have posted a new blog. So much has happened in the past few months!

The job I started last September lasted about a week. It was just not a good fit for me. However, I just started a new job this past week. I am excited about this one. I actually like it so far. It is just supposed to be a contract position for about 6 months working thru a temp service; but I am hoping that it will turn into something a little longer. One year is my goal. If I can put all my income aside for one year, then we will have all our extra debt paid off & have enough money to pay for an adoption.

I also started hormone replacement therapy back in November. The husband heard a commercial about this natural/ bio-identical hormone clinic. He called me & said I needed to go (ha). Since the lupron depot shots, I have not felt like the same person. Now I know part of the reason for that is because my hormones were off. I had my first "pellet" back in November. I am not sure I can tell a huge difference; but the husband says he can. I had to pay for a year of this therapy up front; so I will at least keep up with the treatment for that period of time. We will see how it goes.

The month of December was a rough month for me. I lost two babies in the month of December...one in 1998 & the other in 2002. Needless to say, I usually get down during that time of the year. Some years are worse than others; and this year just happened to be worse. On top of already being down, I hear of 6 different people I know being pregnant...one of which is my brother & his wife. It is always hard for me to hear about people being pregnant; but the timing of this made it worse. There ended up being a lot of drama & conflict within my family because of all of this. I wont go into detail; lets just say it was horrible & I am so glad it is over!! {Sadly, 2 out of those 6 people ended up having miscarriages the 1st week of January (one of which was my brother & his wife). I know what it feels like to loose a baby; and I pray for both families that suffered that loss.}

Moving on to the New Year.....I am excited to see what this new year has in store. So far, it has brought about a new job for me. Hopefully it will also bring my husband & I a baby via adoption!! We are looking at starting the process sometime in March or April. We should have all of our "ducks in a row" by then =)) As for New Year resolutions, I did not really make any. I guess I should have though. So....as of now, my resolution(s) will be to:
work on my relationship with the Lord
get more involved in the church
try to be a more positive person & stop focusing on the negative in life
read more books (including the Bible)
spend more time with family & friends
try to be more disciplined with day-to-day chores (I seem to have gotten lazy with them - ha)
exercise

In closing, I just want to ask everyone to pray for a dear friend of mine who is battling cancer. She received some not-so-good news on her last doctor visit. Please pray for her, as well as her family.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Answered prayer for a job

I forgot to add in my last blog that God answered my prayers for a job! I interviewed for a job last Friday at a place about 15 minutes from our home. They hired me on the spot! Now this is not a good paying job. I have not made this amount of money since I got out of high school; However, I am very thankful to have it!!

I had been praying for a job that would be close to home, & one that didn't require me to be on my feet all day (since I have horrible back pain). I prayed for a job so that we could save money for an adoption. Praise the Lord, He answered my prayers!

Exodus 15:2 (New International Version)
2 The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise him, my father's God, and I will exalt him.

Adoption Seminar

Since I was a teenager, I always knew I wanted to adopt one day. Back then I thought I would have a biological child, then adopt another child. Little did I know, that was not going to be God's plan.

I have *known* for years (deep in my heart) that having a biological child was not going to be an option for me. I had suffered several miscarriages & years of infertility. So, when I met my husband, I told him up front that if we ever had children, it would more than likely have to be through adoption. Luckily, he was totally fine with that idea.

Since then we have had two doctors tell us biological children are not an option for us. We have talked about adopting for about two years now; however, it hasn't been until recently that we have gotten serious about it. So, I have been researching different agencies & trying to learn more about the adoption process for several months now. I tend to get really overwhelmed when I think about the whole process. There is so much information out there & many decisions to make. So, when I saw that the church we are attending was hosting an adoption seminar, I signed us up! What better way to learn about God's view on adoption, and to learn more about the entire process.

We attended the seminar yesterday. I was very informative & very emotional. We were able to meet with couples who have been thru the adoption process, meet with different adoption agencies, learn about the financial aspects & options out there, as well as hear what God has to say about orphans of the world & adoption. I am so happy that we attended. I feel more than ever that the Lord is leading us to adopt. So...the next step is to continue to pray about it ~ pray for wisdom, guidance, and patience. We need to pray about when exactly we should start the process, pray for the Lord to lead us in choosing the right agency, for Him to provide the funds necessary, to give us patience thru the process, and to pray for the birth mother & child that He has planned for us!

I am looking forward to being a part of the adoption ministry at church. I believe everyone involved in the ministry will be a great support to us.

I will close with a verse that was in our adoption seminar workbook:

Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Doctor Appt

While living in MS I met a nice lady in Wal-Mart seafood department. Don't ask me why, but some how we got on the subject of fertility. She gave me a card & told me I should come by her office. I don't know why; but I just assumed she was a nurse there. I was wrong....she was the doctor. (ha) She was the first doctor who really *got* me, and I felt completely comfortable with. She was awesome! Unfortunately, she wasn't able to come with me when we moved back to Nashville. :-(

So....now that we are back in Nashville, I had to find a new OB. I had my first appointment today. I found a lady that specialized as an OBGYN as well as Endocrinologist. I thought with my history she would be perfect.

The major reason I wanted to talk with the dr was to determine weather or not having a child of my own is really an option, & if not, should I have a hysterectomy to cure my endo. I am so tired of the being in severe pain each month; so I figured if I cannot have a child of my own, maybe I should just take it all out.

Well she confirmed what a RE told us last year....IVF is our only option of conceiving & that's only about a 30% (at best) chance of success. With those odds, we don't want to put ourselves thru IVF....not when we could spend that money toward adopting a child. Even though we had heard that news before, it was still hard to hear it again. I guess you always hold out hope that by some miracle they could be wrong. I think it was harder for GW to hear that news again that it was for me. I guess I have always known deep down that I would never have the privilege of having a biological child of my own...I would never experience what it was like to be pregnant, or to give birth. Although it still upsets me at times to think about it, I have to remind myself that God has something else planned for me.

With that being said, I am pretty sure that we will try to start the adoption process very soon. We have talked a lot about it the past few months; but just weren't sure if we could afford it, and aren't too sure about how the whole process works. So, we are taking the first step & are attending an adoption seminar at the church we have been attending. I am really looking forward to this.

So...back to the dr visit.....she did not think it would be wise for me to have a hysterectomy at this time. She says that will cure one problem; but create a whole new set of issues. She suggested I wait until I am in my 40s for that one. So....now I have 3 options as to how we control the endo & the pain it causes me. I am going to go ahead and take one of those off the list b/c it can cause weight gain & facial hair growth (ha). That leaves me with bc or an IUD. Now I just need to do more research on the two options so that I can make a decision....and do lots of praying!



Proverbs 3:5 (Amplified Bible)
5Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.