Doctor Appt

While living in MS I met a nice lady in Wal-Mart seafood department. Don't ask me why, but some how we got on the subject of fertility. She gave me a card & told me I should come by her office. I don't know why; but I just assumed she was a nurse there. I was wrong....she was the doctor. (ha) She was the first doctor who really *got* me, and I felt completely comfortable with. She was awesome! Unfortunately, she wasn't able to come with me when we moved back to Nashville. :-(

So....now that we are back in Nashville, I had to find a new OB. I had my first appointment today. I found a lady that specialized as an OBGYN as well as Endocrinologist. I thought with my history she would be perfect.

The major reason I wanted to talk with the dr was to determine weather or not having a child of my own is really an option, & if not, should I have a hysterectomy to cure my endo. I am so tired of the being in severe pain each month; so I figured if I cannot have a child of my own, maybe I should just take it all out.

Well she confirmed what a RE told us last year....IVF is our only option of conceiving & that's only about a 30% (at best) chance of success. With those odds, we don't want to put ourselves thru IVF....not when we could spend that money toward adopting a child. Even though we had heard that news before, it was still hard to hear it again. I guess you always hold out hope that by some miracle they could be wrong. I think it was harder for GW to hear that news again that it was for me. I guess I have always known deep down that I would never have the privilege of having a biological child of my own...I would never experience what it was like to be pregnant, or to give birth. Although it still upsets me at times to think about it, I have to remind myself that God has something else planned for me.

With that being said, I am pretty sure that we will try to start the adoption process very soon. We have talked a lot about it the past few months; but just weren't sure if we could afford it, and aren't too sure about how the whole process works. So, we are taking the first step & are attending an adoption seminar at the church we have been attending. I am really looking forward to this.

So...back to the dr visit.....she did not think it would be wise for me to have a hysterectomy at this time. She says that will cure one problem; but create a whole new set of issues. She suggested I wait until I am in my 40s for that one. So....now I have 3 options as to how we control the endo & the pain it causes me. I am going to go ahead and take one of those off the list b/c it can cause weight gain & facial hair growth (ha). That leaves me with bc or an IUD. Now I just need to do more research on the two options so that I can make a decision....and do lots of praying!



Proverbs 3:5 (Amplified Bible)
5Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.